Cause baby you're just the type, I can stay up and talk to all night

I'm sad now. I hate being judged this way. I hate tactlessness. I hate it when you turn out to be wrong about someone.

Everyone has told me that I have changed. But only two people have made me feel good about it. One of them, Shaza, acknowledges the fact that I'm changing. And I think I am. Before when I was attached, I knew my limits. I was happier knowing my limits, really. But now that I'm single, I'm pretty much able to do whatever I want and that's when I have to decide for myself if I want to do something. Have I changed for the worse? Have I become wilder? I'd say no. You're welcome to your own opinion, but I say I haven't. I'd say "Don't judge me," but I can't because you already have.

I don't think I'm not upholding love. Faizah just told me I'm strong for doing what I did. Just because you're in a relationship with someone, that you stick it out regardless, it doesn't necessarily mean you're upholding love. Of course you'd still love a person. You'd love him for the memories. I still stand by my opinion that you should only be in a relationship if two is better than one. In my previous relationship, two was better than one. Sure we fought, sure I cried, but I was willing to make sacrifices and endure for him because I loved him. But somewhere along the way, things changed. How come? Did I change? Perhaps. Perhaps I was too drunk on my new-found freedom. I'm not too sure if it was the distance that made me feel as though we had grown apart.

But you know what? I love him. I'll always love him. And I know [at least I hope] that he'll always love me. To borrow a few lines from a very old entry, written when I was sixteen, I'm content with knowing I have a special place in your heart.

I think I agree most with what Nurul said. That sometimes after being in a relationship for so long, you tend to forget the difference - why you're actually in a relationship in the first place, what it's like to love someone and be loved by someone in return. [At least I think she said something along those lines.] Which is why I need to take a step back from everything right now and just breathe. I don't know if what I'm doing now..I'll regret in time to come. I can't predict the future. I just know that I have to take this time out to breathe.

Right back at ya, babe.